I've been really afraid of things lately. Afraid of losing my job, I know that I won't because there aren't enough people on staff anyways. Afraid that I won't do well when I go back to school, even though I know that I'm a good student. Afraid that I will end up alone, even though I have so many caring people in my life.
I'm so afraid of fading into the background but I feel like it might be a good thing if I just let it happen. The person that I am right now isn't foreground material. She isn't worth noticing. I constantly let people walk over me. Why? Because I don't have anything to stand for.
I need to be the perfect person. So no one can look at me and pity me anymore. But I don't know how to get there.